My 3rd iPod.
I know that it has been long overdue but I still keep on eyeing at this little wonder. Thanks to the IT show that gives a bundle of freebies which somehow eliminates ounce of guilt that I have from buying this player aside having a global crisis. Well, it took me one whole day to decide, so it wasn't bad after all, I guess.
After IT show, I decided to eat sinful food again, which is bacon cheeseburger at Carl's Jr. My twister fries isn't ready yet and they asked me to wait for few minutes, and with that, they gave me a number to identify my order ..... And the number is:
Kinikilig pa ang star! While I was in the midst of eating ... something happened. Yes, something happened. I saw, (of all people) a long lost friend na nakasakitan ko (way back 2004, last time we saw each other too). Modesty aside, somehow, I admired myself and I got to know another piece of my behaviour. Apparently, nginitan ko sya. And hindi naman ako napahiya kasi ngumit din sya at kumaway pa sakin. And then I just continued my eating business. Time heals all wounds pala talaga. I remember, it was year 2004 nung nag-away kami na ang daming taong nadamay. Ang daming pangalang nasabit sa gulo, acutally, kung artista lang kami, malamang isang bwan kami sa newspaper dahil sa gulo na napasukan namin.
Ito yung year na umiyak ako. Ito yung nasaktan ako. Ito yung nakasakit ako. Ito yung nagpunta ako ng simbahan at kinausap ko si Father Angel (Filipino priest base in Singapore) na para akong bata na umiiyak. Ito yung year na may napaka laki akong nagawang kasalanan kay Lord kasi gusto ko nang magpakamatay (ready na akong tumalon from the roof of my office to the point na I brought my bag with me with all my identification cards and home address) Ito yung year na tanga ako. Pero ito din yung year na naging matalino ako. Ito din ang year na sinabi ni Fr. Angel na iwan ko na ang Singapore para makalimutan ko yung nangyari. Ito yata yung year na nakita ko yung napaka clear visibility na nag-mature ako as a person.
Sa lahat ng sinabi ko na yan, may isang taong involved. And sya yung nakita ko kagabi.
When I reached home last night, madami akong naisip. Madami akong natutunan. From now on, I will always look at any problems from far. I will see it like a bird's eye view. Kasi hindi ko pala alam na after lumipas ang mga araw, yun palang problema ko mawawala din. Kahit pala gano pa kasakit, gumagaling din.
Haaay buhay, nawala na tuloy ang focus ko sa iPod :)
2 comments:
Buti na lang may nag pabago ng isipan mo to commit suicide dahil kung hindi wala itong blog mo na ito na binabasa namin everyday.. grabe its hard for me to believe na ikaw na super masayahing tao ay may experience na ganyan..WOW thats really shocking & im sure some our friends that will read this gonna feel the same way.
I'll say enjoy your new IPod and don't feel guilty coz kung nag suicide ka hindi mo yan nakita.
tess
tess - as the saying goes "do not judge the book if you are not a judge" or "do not judge me cos im not a book", hahaha!
things happen for a reason and shit happens all the time. i was unfortunate to have experieced such but fortunate enough to have accepted it as one of life's greatest lessons on me. charge it to experience na lang kumbaga.
sabi nga nila, kung sino daw yung masayahin, sya ang totoong malungkutin. pero it is still subjective kasi i consider myself as really funny and a person with tons of laughter inside and out and never malungkutin dominantly.
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